Infidelity with The Bottle

If you have been in active addiction in a relationship, you probably have been having an affair with the bottle. You might think that sounds crazy, but who came first? Your spouse or the bottle?

Speaking from experience, I kept saying “I won’t drink” and “It wont happen again”, while hiding booze in every crevasse of our home.

My actions made my husband feel like I didn’t care about him or our family. The truth was, I really cared deeply for my family, but the bottle was #1.

There is a reason the Alcohol Anonymous book says “Remember we deal with alcohol – cunning, baffling, powerful!” (page 58).

I didn’t understand how bad my alcoholism progressed. I just knew, I needed that next drink, even if it ended up in an argument. If we argued, that just meant I would justify drinking more.

When I thought of it like I had an affair with the bottle, it put it in a different perspective. How could my family trust me again when all I have done is lie about drinking?

It takes time to mend those old wounds. I learned I had to be respectful of the boundaries that were set, and that only time will show I have changed. Which, for an impatient alcoholic… is not easy, but there is no other choice.

Just remember the Serenity Prayer “God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”